I'm gonna start off by saying that his one blog will most likely be more revealing about myself to the public then any other blog I've written. But then, at the same time, I don't know how many actually read this particular blog, so I could just be talking to about 2 or 3 of my friends who already know more than they would like to know about me. Ha ha ha. Well... anyways...
I'm sitting here at 2:06am thinking about the last three years. I know I know, thinking is a bad habit and I really shouldn't be doing that. Especially shouldn't be thinking if its in regards to the past. But you know what, I think it's important that you reflect every so often from where you came from and who you were and who you have become. Mistakes were made for learning purposes and I feel that this is a moment where I need to learn something.
So... quick run down of the last 3 years. Broken engagement. Broken heart (1). Swing dancing learned. Lost job. Found a passion (acting). Poor house. Repo. Crap jobs. New heart. Broken heart (2). New place. New job. Fixed heart. Amazing Job. Big money. Lied to. Broken heart (3). Great friends. Fun times. New York. No Job. Decent money. New Job? Big Move? Not happening. Fires. No Apartment. Good friends. Dead grandpa. PA and New York again.
Wow. Who knew I could sum up most of the major events in my life in one paragraph. Crazy! But ya. That's that. I'd like to think that I've become a pretty awesome person. Sure, I still have flaws, everyone does. But I've developed a more refined sense of responsibility and charisma that I didn't have before. My free spirited self is slowly coming back. I'm a bit more mature... a bit. Very slight. But I've learned about myself more through these situations and I know I can handle pretty much anything that comes my way. I have a strong personality, and even stronger family and friends to help me if I fall. I know what I want in life, and my patience has only grown by leaps and bounds at every fall back. I'll get to where I want to be in life, it'll take awhile I'm sure. But it'll happen. I'm thankful for everyone that has hurt me or done something to harm me in someway. If it wasn't for you morons, I wouldn't be as intelligent and aware of my own needs today. So thanks for being retards. *thumbs up*. And thanks to everyone who has helped me along the way. I couldn't have asked for better friends and family.
I honestly thought this would be a longer blog, but really, that's kinda all I wanted to say. I'm flying to PA and NY on Friday for 10 days, so I'll be taking loads of pictures while I'm there. Even though it's for a funeral, I still think it'll be fun with family.
Oh, and in an older entry in one of my personal writings I had decided that this time was my new year. So let the new year begin now! Whoo Hoo!
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