2013: It's your fault

2013 was a pretty good year. This is the year that my heart grew like the Grinch's heart. It can't be helped I suppose. Half way through the year, and a bucket full of disgust for "the datings" I finally met someone who my innocent flirting behavior had actually turned into flirting on purpose. It was definitely a great surprise. 

I had to get that out of the way first. So, as per the usual, I'm posting the last blog of the year for myself. I'm a little sad that I didn't write more this year, but that was explained in the last blog entry. I did happen to go through and re-read the old NYE posts for 2009, 2011, and 2012. Apparently, 2010 didn't exist, so we'll just move on from that one. As mentioned (last blog), I'm on a 5 year plan. The plan is semi-unbeknownst to myself in details; only in the fact that I know there's one. 

So, before I continue to my prediction for 2014, I'd like to say how grateful I am for this year. There has been a lot of positive energy and positive events that have come to fruition in the last half of this year and it's been pretty incredible; girlfriend, nephew, acting, trips. Now the pessimist in me wants to say that it's just a matter of time. But I'm not concerned about that anymore. I've lived through Hell for a year and came out stronger and more awesome; I can handle anything now. 

So, let's talk about what I think about 2014; unbelievable. This next year is going to be absolutely unbelievable. Things are going to change, a lot, and there's going to be some big incredible unbelievable things happening. I can't say good or bad. But I know, I've know this for a very very long time. I've said too much already. Now, keep in mind that this prediction is really only centered around my little universe, and those who are inside the bubble of me, which in no way is meant to be dirty. But ya, there is something very very grand happening this year and it's going to change the outcome of many years to come. I have the most extreme excited nervousness about it. 

Again, another massive thanks to everyone who made this year incredible. Close friends, far away friends, friends who I don't talk to as much cause of life and my inability to remain in constant contact, friends who have always been there and I don't need to remain in constant contact with but always have my back (and I theirs) family who is friends, and friends who are family; all of you are incredible and amazing and keep me strong and awesome just in knowing you. Thank you. 

May this next year be one of blessings, positive energy, and growth. 

Learn from even the smallest of mistakes and become stronger in character and emotional muscle. 

Smile more, be generous with your laughter, and always give hugs and high fives as often as possible; you never know who could use them.

Be safe-

Me

A dream

Look at me, doing the breathing and living of life stuff. Yep, yep, still alive. I've found that most of my usual blog conversations with myself, take place on my drive home from work or to/from a friends house/event. But here I am, writing, in my blog, dictating myself for everyone to see and understand, or documenting things I feel and think in case I completely lose my mind later in life.

Where to begin. Well, like I said, last year, this year is going to be a good year. I suppose it's part of a 5 year plan for my own personality; the first year was growth, the second year was stability, and the third year is push. I've taken some very large baby steps this year. Many of my friends don't realize it. Few of my close friends do.
Sigh. I have so much to say, my brain is exploding with words.

Okay. Quick speed through. I met someone. A woman. Shocking, I know. But this one, somehow, demolished my protective layers.
Everyone does it. You get emotionally hurt, you build walls. I, of course, built so many landmines I was scared to take a step outside of my own walls, which of course were layered with spikes and barb wire. Let's not forget the solid 5 foot thick iron gates and the moat with man eating piranha, a small hedge outlining that with every type of dangerous spider, and... well... let's just say I did my best to make it nearly impossible to get involved with me.
Then she happened. Not sure how she did it. But she did. It was as if she had an indestructible tank with flamethrowers coming off every side and armor piercing weaponry. Actually, it was pretty impressive. I know there's a lot of people who know how adamant I had been about not ever dating, finding someone, or wanting a relationship... and yet... here we are. I can't be upset by this, even if I wanted to. If I was, I wouldn't be in the relationship to begin with. This one is definitely pretty amazing.

So, ya... that's been happening. And as most people would assume, "you haven't been writing cause you've been busy with the new girlfriend, happens every time". Actually... that's incorrect. My weekends are pretty tied up, sure. But to be honest, I just haven't had much to say. There are a few things that come to mind now.
For instance, communication in a relationship is way different in theory as opposed to in action. Duh. Yes. I know. But when all I have to go off is theory, it's interesting to finally see it and use it in practice. Of course, everyone is wired differently and learning how to communicate properly to the certain people is always a new task. But when both people are trying to communicate and are willing to do so, then it makes everything SOOOO much easier. HOLY CRAP. I mean, really?! No offence to my past experiences, but let's be honest here, having the right communication wave length makes things soooooooooooooo much easier.

I could go for days, months, years talking about it, but I'd rather NOT make people sick with all the ridiculousness that is my emotional excitement (a different entry would be needed for that).

So instead, I bring us to Thanksgiving. Well, what WAS Thanksgiving, and is now the prior Thanksgiving of 2013.

I'd like to say thanks. I've been incredibly blessed with very good friends and family. This isn't me bragging, this is me saying thank you. I know I'm a big pain in the butt, and I tend to forget easily, and frequently. But I appreciate those of you who have made strong attempts to keep in contact with me. And those who still respond to me, despite my disappearing tricks and lack of returning calls. Trust me when I say, I honestly just forget or become busy. I'm not on the internets that is Facebook much anymore (Google chat and text is the easiest way of communication it would appear now). But I digress.
This year has been an interesting one (as predicted). I appreciate those of my friends who have been there for that much needed hug, those ears to listen to my complaints and questions, and those high fives to boost my confidence. I finally feel like I'm winning at life, and I'm feeling more prepared and ready to exact my doomsday devi... I mean...er... exact my love and appreciation for life onto the world.
I've got a solid job that challenges me and allows me the utmost freedom to continue to follow my dream of acting, wherever that may take me.
I've got a family that is supportive and also growing, with a new nephew now who has blessed me with the title of Uncle.
I've got friends who support me, look out for me, always with love and laughter.
And I've got a relationship that gives me strength, confidence, love and support. Someone who inspires me, and shows me what a good person truly is. Someone who is my biggest supporter in world domina.... er... succeeding in my career, dreams, and aspirations, no matter what they are.

I'm only awesome by way of the awesome that I surround myself with. So thank you for lending me some of your awesome and continuing to help me become stronger, better, wiser.