So apparently June doesn't get any blogs. June isn't really a bad month, good things have sprouted from that month; my parents getting married for one, and uh... that's about it. This last June of course, wasn't bad though. I flew to New York with my friend George for a week to visit my sister and hang out, which was of course AWESOME. Many many many great pictures. I got a new camera in May and since then I've gone absolutely crazy with it. So many more pictures. I've also learned how to walk on stilts. Did I write that already? Sheesh, I don't even remember. Doesn't really matter anyways. I really came on here to just kinda empty my brain for a bit. So much is going on lately it seems. I've been playing the "cave dweller hermit matt" game for a few weeks, plus there's been announcement after announcement about weddings. So far I've heard about at least 3 or 4 breakups, 2 divorces and 3 engagements, 3 weddings. I'm kinda sick of it actually. One of which is my own sister's wedding. Which is great, I love my sister, and as far as I can tell the guy is really cool. Wedding happens on this saturday the 11th. It's ridiculous. So much family. Soooooooo much work. I always thought that it would be awesome to have this HUGE party and reception and such things, but man, too much work. I don't want that much work. Not that the groom has to do much except nod his head and agree to whatever. But honestly, too much work. I love the grandeur of a massive party and celebration, but I think when there is this much work involved it's just not worth it. Not to mention all the people who get hurt in the process. I've kept my mouth shut on a lot of stuff, it's not my wedding, so what do I care. But it still sucks to watch certain people get hurt or hear about different tiffs and arguements involved with the planning. How irritating.
Aside from that, just hearing about all these people getting married and break-ups, and getting together and other such craziness. It's just insane! I find myself quite confused. On one hand I feel the lonliness of not having the female of my dreams by myside and seeing that happy future. On the other hand... I'm quite happy NOT having someone. It's a give and take feeling I suppose. I'm enjoying my time on my own nonetheless and it feels pretty good. Aside from the insomnia, and random nightmares that do occur, I'm happy. A little impatient at times for life to move faster to get to the way better parts. But still good. I've almost decided that I don't want to get married. I'm sure that will change once the right person comes around, but right now, it doesn't sound like much fun.
Now for something compeltely different:
I'm moving in August, hopefully. So far it's pretty solid. I'm very excited. Can't wait to move to Newport and finally live outside of my parents place. So many things planned between now and then too, bonfire, san diego, then moving, then a wedding, then another wedding, then stilt walking at the playboy mansion. Ya, that's what I said, you read that right. That should be quite interesting. And hopefully this freelance art work I've been doing actually takes off.
Things are moving at a moderate pace, I just wish I could crack the whip to get it moving faster.
Oh, and my wonderful mother is ALREADY talking about my 30th birthday. I still got 6 months! What to do, what to do. I think I might be on a cruise... might being the keyword.
alright, I write another time. I'm out.
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