Look at me, doing the breathing and living of life stuff. Yep, yep, still alive. I've found that most of my usual blog conversations with myself, take place on my drive home from work or to/from a friends house/event. But here I am, writing, in my blog, dictating myself for everyone to see and understand, or documenting things I feel and think in case I completely lose my mind later in life.
Where to begin. Well, like I said, last year, this year is going to be a good year. I suppose it's part of a 5 year plan for my own personality; the first year was growth, the second year was stability, and the third year is push. I've taken some very large baby steps this year. Many of my friends don't realize it. Few of my close friends do.
Sigh. I have so much to say, my brain is exploding with words.
Okay. Quick speed through. I met someone. A woman. Shocking, I know. But this one, somehow, demolished my protective layers.
Everyone does it. You get emotionally hurt, you build walls. I, of course, built so many landmines I was scared to take a step outside of my own walls, which of course were layered with spikes and barb wire. Let's not forget the solid 5 foot thick iron gates and the moat with man eating piranha, a small hedge outlining that with every type of dangerous spider, and... well... let's just say I did my best to make it nearly impossible to get involved with me.
Then she happened. Not sure how she did it. But she did. It was as if she had an indestructible tank with flamethrowers coming off every side and armor piercing weaponry. Actually, it was pretty impressive. I know there's a lot of people who know how adamant I had been about not ever dating, finding someone, or wanting a relationship... and yet... here we are. I can't be upset by this, even if I wanted to. If I was, I wouldn't be in the relationship to begin with. This one is definitely pretty amazing.
So, ya... that's been happening. And as most people would assume, "you haven't been writing cause you've been busy with the new girlfriend, happens every time". Actually... that's incorrect. My weekends are pretty tied up, sure. But to be honest, I just haven't had much to say. There are a few things that come to mind now.
For instance, communication in a relationship is way different in theory as opposed to in action. Duh. Yes. I know. But when all I have to go off is theory, it's interesting to finally see it and use it in practice. Of course, everyone is wired differently and learning how to communicate properly to the certain people is always a new task. But when both people are trying to communicate and are willing to do so, then it makes everything SOOOO much easier. HOLY CRAP. I mean, really?! No offence to my past experiences, but let's be honest here, having the right communication wave length makes things soooooooooooooo much easier.
I could go for days, months, years talking about it, but I'd rather NOT make people sick with all the ridiculousness that is my emotional excitement (a different entry would be needed for that).
So instead, I bring us to Thanksgiving. Well, what WAS Thanksgiving, and is now the prior Thanksgiving of 2013.
I'd like to say thanks. I've been incredibly blessed with very good friends and family. This isn't me bragging, this is me saying thank you. I know I'm a big pain in the butt, and I tend to forget easily, and frequently. But I appreciate those of you who have made strong attempts to keep in contact with me. And those who still respond to me, despite my disappearing tricks and lack of returning calls. Trust me when I say, I honestly just forget or become busy. I'm not on the internets that is Facebook much anymore (Google chat and text is the easiest way of communication it would appear now). But I digress.
This year has been an interesting one (as predicted). I appreciate those of my friends who have been there for that much needed hug, those ears to listen to my complaints and questions, and those high fives to boost my confidence. I finally feel like I'm winning at life, and I'm feeling more prepared and ready to exact my doomsday devi... I mean...er... exact my love and appreciation for life onto the world.
I've got a solid job that challenges me and allows me the utmost freedom to continue to follow my dream of acting, wherever that may take me.
I've got a family that is supportive and also growing, with a new nephew now who has blessed me with the title of Uncle.
I've got friends who support me, look out for me, always with love and laughter.
And I've got a relationship that gives me strength, confidence, love and support. Someone who inspires me, and shows me what a good person truly is. Someone who is my biggest supporter in world domina.... er... succeeding in my career, dreams, and aspirations, no matter what they are.
I'm only awesome by way of the awesome that I surround myself with. So thank you for lending me some of your awesome and continuing to help me become stronger, better, wiser.
Where to begin. Well, like I said, last year, this year is going to be a good year. I suppose it's part of a 5 year plan for my own personality; the first year was growth, the second year was stability, and the third year is push. I've taken some very large baby steps this year. Many of my friends don't realize it. Few of my close friends do.
Sigh. I have so much to say, my brain is exploding with words.
Okay. Quick speed through. I met someone. A woman. Shocking, I know. But this one, somehow, demolished my protective layers.
Everyone does it. You get emotionally hurt, you build walls. I, of course, built so many landmines I was scared to take a step outside of my own walls, which of course were layered with spikes and barb wire. Let's not forget the solid 5 foot thick iron gates and the moat with man eating piranha, a small hedge outlining that with every type of dangerous spider, and... well... let's just say I did my best to make it nearly impossible to get involved with me.
Then she happened. Not sure how she did it. But she did. It was as if she had an indestructible tank with flamethrowers coming off every side and armor piercing weaponry. Actually, it was pretty impressive. I know there's a lot of people who know how adamant I had been about not ever dating, finding someone, or wanting a relationship... and yet... here we are. I can't be upset by this, even if I wanted to. If I was, I wouldn't be in the relationship to begin with. This one is definitely pretty amazing.
So, ya... that's been happening. And as most people would assume, "you haven't been writing cause you've been busy with the new girlfriend, happens every time". Actually... that's incorrect. My weekends are pretty tied up, sure. But to be honest, I just haven't had much to say. There are a few things that come to mind now.
For instance, communication in a relationship is way different in theory as opposed to in action. Duh. Yes. I know. But when all I have to go off is theory, it's interesting to finally see it and use it in practice. Of course, everyone is wired differently and learning how to communicate properly to the certain people is always a new task. But when both people are trying to communicate and are willing to do so, then it makes everything SOOOO much easier. HOLY CRAP. I mean, really?! No offence to my past experiences, but let's be honest here, having the right communication wave length makes things soooooooooooooo much easier.
I could go for days, months, years talking about it, but I'd rather NOT make people sick with all the ridiculousness that is my emotional excitement (a different entry would be needed for that).
So instead, I bring us to Thanksgiving. Well, what WAS Thanksgiving, and is now the prior Thanksgiving of 2013.
I'd like to say thanks. I've been incredibly blessed with very good friends and family. This isn't me bragging, this is me saying thank you. I know I'm a big pain in the butt, and I tend to forget easily, and frequently. But I appreciate those of you who have made strong attempts to keep in contact with me. And those who still respond to me, despite my disappearing tricks and lack of returning calls. Trust me when I say, I honestly just forget or become busy. I'm not on the internets that is Facebook much anymore (Google chat and text is the easiest way of communication it would appear now). But I digress.
This year has been an interesting one (as predicted). I appreciate those of my friends who have been there for that much needed hug, those ears to listen to my complaints and questions, and those high fives to boost my confidence. I finally feel like I'm winning at life, and I'm feeling more prepared and ready to exact my doomsday devi... I mean...er... exact my love and appreciation for life onto the world.
I've got a solid job that challenges me and allows me the utmost freedom to continue to follow my dream of acting, wherever that may take me.
I've got a family that is supportive and also growing, with a new nephew now who has blessed me with the title of Uncle.
I've got friends who support me, look out for me, always with love and laughter.
And I've got a relationship that gives me strength, confidence, love and support. Someone who inspires me, and shows me what a good person truly is. Someone who is my biggest supporter in world domina.... er... succeeding in my career, dreams, and aspirations, no matter what they are.
I'm only awesome by way of the awesome that I surround myself with. So thank you for lending me some of your awesome and continuing to help me become stronger, better, wiser.
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