Hypocritical Contradiction

Isn't that rhetorical? So I've done some thinking, mainly just today, because most of my activities require little to no mental abilities, allowing my brain to wander freely in a most disturbing manner. So. I find it very odd that we, as a human race, were given a brain to think and heart to feel with. One has reasoning and logic behind it and makes complete sense (most of the time). Then there is the "feelings" part that just gums up the works. The brain says "This is the most logical plan to go with, and this is how it should be done, and this is how it should be." Then the heart responds with "Eh, I don't feeeeeeel like that's a good idea." What the hell? Seriously?

Everything is so logical and makes sense, then you add in the whole love,hate,sadness blah blah blah crap, and it just screws it all up. Inner arguments abound. I typically don't do much thinking. I try really hard to NOT think about anything. Just do, not think. But there are those moments that thinking is required, and when I do, I try and make a valid reason as to the nature of why, how, what, ect. But in some cases, after a plan of action has been launched and completed, the concepts and ideas become jeopardized. No longer is it a great idea, maybe a good idea at best. Or better still doubts and questions and other stupid crap pop into the brain. Sure it still sounds like a good idea, and I'm sure it was. I mean logically speaking of course, it was sound proof. And the outcome would be no different any other way. So, now it's like a dual personality, arguing with itself inside my cramped compartmentalized brain. It's annoying as hell cause the mixture of emotions are retarded.

If I was to become purely logical, with reason and such, and just shrug off and turn off those mixtures of feelings. Then I would appear distant, non-social, and as an individual containing emotional walls. But, reversing that effect, having no logic, or reason, and just feeling all the time... well... isn't that exhausting? There doesn't seem to be much benefit to that. Not to mention the idiocy in the actions caused by such nonsensical behavior. I can't abide by that at all. Wouldn't it just be safer to NOT have emotions? To just have a switch allowing the easy, comings and goings of people around? I think I'd rather be able to have that. The it would cluster f the gears in my head and prevent me from acting the way I WANT to act, instead of the way I feel. I find it completely idiotic and retarded.

I don't know HOW women live like that.