I'm making this blog as an example to myself and my friends that read my blogs. I find it odd that on the 20Th year anniversary of the Berlin Wall coming down, that I will also break down my own walls. Many of you have noticed that I have walls, metaphorically speaking of course. I have increased my habits of deflecting many things with my humor and wit, and have also raised barriers from trying to prevent anyone from actually gaining enough depth about me as to actually know what I might be thinking. Then again, it's probably a better idea if you DIDN'T know what I was thinking. Half the time I wish I didn't know what I was thinking... but I digress. The point is that after many (and by many I mean a few, and by few I mean about 3 or less) random people have pointed out to me that I have, for lack of a better term, strong armed or held them at a distance because I have walls. Okay, strong armed is way to strong of a definition but I think you all get my point. It's also amazing to me how simple events in life trigger such a mind altering look into one's soul. Last week I had thought about it, literally... laid down on my bed and thought about it. Well, not for a full hour of course, my brain jumps around too much and concentrating on one thing hardly ever happens. It's more like an episode of Family Guy with constant distractions from the main plot line(thought). Again, I digress. The point is I had thought about it and realized how my various actions and conversations with other various people and incidences completely went a different direction from where I had originally thought they would go. Never did I realize that the walls I had built so high to protect me would actually end up harming me. Sounds lame now that I'm actually typing it, but in reality it's kinda true. It's not entirely bad to be somewhat protective of yourself and such things. But it would be the same as being overprotective of your own child. Being overprotective can lead to many missed opportunities and experiences that would only help the personality grow and learn. Worst part is I had no idea I was doing it. And after some thinking and pondering (and googling) I came up with theories and ideas on how to break down my walls. Finally the conclusion I came to was that I just need to talk with people. Not be so deflective. If I start doing that again, someone let me know, as I'm actually very oblivious to many things. Plus my memory is horrible. And as I'm sure there was more to this little blog I wanted to say, I can't quite remember what it was.
............ oh ya... that's right.
My goal this year was to write 2 blogs a month. I'm a little behind, but after this blog is done, I'm only 2 blogs behind. Which honestly isn't too bad. And whereas I was thinking about actually disconnecting my blog from being connected to facebook (cause this blog is originally written on blogger.com)... I think I might just finish out the year with my blog being connected to the popular social network.
Well I think that's it. I still really feel there was something else I wanted to add, but I just can't.... wait... wait... nope... lost it... wait.... uhhhhhhhhh... nope... nothing.
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