So, 29 times around the sun now. I still look young, I still feel young.... *sniff sniff* I don't smell like an old person. I think I'm in a great place in my life. I'm single and almost debt free. Soon I will be able to do and go anywhere in the world. I'm actually going to go places and see things. Gonna learn to Salsa this year at some point. I'm also in the process of learning French, Dutch and Japanese. I'll also be working on my swing dancing skills. I'm doing things this year because I want to.
At some point in your life, you will look back. You will hit a memory road, you'll remember good times with those great friends. You might remember those old lovers. You might also remember all those empty promises you made to yourself or that others made to you. Then, at that moment of inner memory reflection, you'll become aware of your age. You'll suddenly become fully conscience of the amount of time that has passed since those younger promises. You'll possibly feel a small knot in your stomach. Or, maybe, you'll just smile and laugh at what you thought was just a stupid childish dream and hope. But you know what? It wasn't stupid, it wasn't childish. It was a dream. The whole world is built on dreams and hopes and wishes. Some more extravagant and outrageous than others, but the few that aren't. Those dreams, THOSE hopes and wishes, THOSE PEOPLE are the ones that go down in history as visionaries. As entrepreneurs who re focused society to grow in a different direction. Those are the people who didn't give up in adversity. They didn't quit believing in themselves. They just did it because they wanted to. Because they knew that they could. Someday... a child... your child, a friend's kid... doesn't matter; that kid will say he wants to build _____ or go _____ or learn _____. Then years later, when you run into that kid, or parent of the kid, in the supermarket, that dream comes up. And you'll remember.
I might be 29 years old, almost 30, which to some is half dead. But I don't see that. I'm excited. I'm sure I could have done things completely different growing up. I could go down a whole list of the do's and don'ts in my life. But why bother? All of those things made me who I am today. And I'm excited. I'm ecstatic. I've realized just how much there is in life that I haven't taken advantage of. I've got such a peace of mind, and such a steady and calm soul that I feel like I can do anything. And it's this feeling that has always been there inside. I've never completely given up. Not on anything. I know that I will accomplish my goals, and my dreams. My optimism might be annoying to some, but I don't care. I will continue on with my smiles and laughs and only enjoy life more. So that when someone looks at me in a picture, a video or in person, they will see what they are missing and join in!
I think that every so often you just need to buy a toy for yourself. Go to toys r us, target, walmart. And just buy yourself a toy. Nerf gun, barbie, legos, a doll house, whatever it is. But don't just buy it and then leave it in the car. Buy it, pay for it, open it up on the way to the car. Play with it. The innocence that was lost as a child can be regained again. It's that carefree fun spirit that everyone should have. Step out of the box! Step out of your comfort zone.
I sound like a weird philosopher. But sometimes when I get into a subject that I enjoy thinking about, I could type for days.
Sidenote: Yes, I edited this blog. Why? Because I felt that the true general point I was trying to make was being taken wrong. It wasn't my intention of singling out any one individual, but more trying to write and speak in generalities. It's from my own personal experience with numerous people. I apologize for any confusion this may have caused. Now on with your regularly scheduled program.
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