Not normal

Normally I won't bother reading what I wrote. I tend to just shut off and write whatever comes to mind. But lately I've been reading everything I've written, and I'm no sure this is related at all, but I've been eating hardboiled eggs every morning for breakfast and it feels like my brain is overdrive. The electrical pulses have been firing quite rapidly, and it's become quite annoying. I hardly ever think. That's just a thing I do. I open my mouth and words come out, and I believe I've written about this before. Honestly though, that's what happens. I just start talking. I could be in a conversation about very intricate matters of the heart and brain and start analyzing while I'm talking and come up with a perfectly logical explanation (if not hypothesis) to continue on with the conversation bringing up better and more valid points as the discussion goes on. Is that how normal people have conversations, or do they actually think about everything before hand and come to their own feelings and conclusions about subjects before engaging in a topical conversation? I'm sure most people already have their minds made up about certain subjects like religion and politics, but what if it's a spur of the moment conversation that they might not have thought about before. How fast does their brain operate to come to an end thought? I'm by no means saying that I'm a super genius by any means, but merely making an observation that it seems like I'm coming up with very thought provoking ideas and concepts on a spur of the moment level, where others interpret my responses and words as a "you've been putting a lot of thought into this, haven't you?" kind of deal. Sometimes, yes, but most of the time... most of the time, no; I have not put as much time into the theories as one might assume.

Assume: to make an ass out of you and me.

That I believe to be quite true. Especially when you start to assume what others think or feel. That causes major conflicts and problems and I really try to do my best with NOT doing that. Quite a difficult chore for some.

Today is a little better than the rest of the week. As pathetic as it may seem, the only way to get my brain to slow down is to take a nap. Which I'm oddly not a fan of actually. Battling my own brain is a weird experience. In the past when situations of the heart arose I just distracted myself with whatever hobby I could that required me to forget about the current life crises that would be happening around me. A friend told me that this ending is gonna be the biggest one for me; it forces me to be introspective, as I have no hobbies to pull me away from the thought process, and because of the introspective manner, this one has the most to learn from it. Personally speaking, I think I already learned now and don't need any more focus on it. But I also suppose it's a healthy moment for me to be forced to look at it (despite my personal frustrations).

This blog has TOTALLY not gone the way I wanted it to go. Too late now, we're on the path in the jungle and the brush is pretty thick. But you know what? I got a MA-CHET-EH, so let's make a new path shall we?

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thinking..... I had a thought for a second, but it vanished, the subject as goals deserves it's own blog... fine... I'll just do that. On to Part 2!!