The fight in my skull rages on my friends. Conflicts arise, and treaties are broken. The revolution has begun and The Clan of Old Habits are in fact dying hard, as The New Thoughts continue to fight strong.
Sometimes I love my analogies, I think they're quite descriptive and occasionally make me laugh. I've been wanting to write for a few days now, but the last post was, and IS very pivotal for me and I also feel that it could help others as well. So if you still haven't read it, I highly suggest it. Again, as a small warning, it's semi-religious based, so take what you will from it. I've also been adding labels to some of the blogs to properly categorize some of my writings. It's adds a better structure to the blog as a whole. With that being said I might add a new label to show which blogs are my personal favorite. Also, I'd like to state that I don't read what I write. I mean, sometimes I do, but for the most part, I don't ever look back immediately after I write it, and critique, edit, or spell check (well I do spell check while I'm writing). I will typically just write what ever my thoughts are, and the words in my head as if I was speaking in person. It seems to be the best and easiest way for me to empty the thoughts out and allows me to continue moving on throughout my day without an increasing headache.
Now that I've said what I wanted to say, I suppose I should get on with the blog and why I was writing in the first place.
I've started running, kinda. Well... no, I actually am I running. I've been trying to get up at 6am, but 6am turns to 6:30, which turns to 7, to 7:30, and one morning was 8:30. Today, 7am. It's been 4 days! Give me some credit here. Being I was going to bed at 4am a week ago, this isn't too bad. I want to get up at 6, but my bed is so comfortable! And I haven't been sleeping well (friggin dreams man!)
So I start with a 10 mile ride along the pacific coast, which I gotta tell you, is very refreshing. I'll listen to a podcast from my church, and then do some meditating and praying on the way back. That's 30 minutes one way, 30 minutes (roughly). Then once I drop the bike off at home, I just run around the block. The first day was crappy, pushed myself to go as far as I can, but made it about half way? Then I decided to go just a bit further then the last point, and I actually ran a lot slower this time, which really does make a difference. Made it about 5/8ths of the way around the block... which is just a bit more than half for those who don't do math. Today, I made it around 75% of the block. Tomorrow? I aim for the whole block... then THE WORLD! MWAHAHAHAHA. right.
Why all the running? The exercise? Aside from the fact that I'm totally diggin' the body tone I've acquired, and that some of my shorts and pants are fitting way better, I'm working on building structure for myself. The last entry had a brief description of it. If I can build a better foundation for myself, I can build a better structure to build out from. My procrastination is a major key that I need to fix within myself in order to move forward and be the best person I can be. So, if I start getting up at an (outrageously) early time, I can get the exercise in that I need to remain healthy, and focus on my tasks during the day. Before this, I was just kinda, doing whatever, whenever. Middle of the day bike ride kinda takes most of your day away from you. By time I was finally ready to do something, it was 9pm. Not so good really.
I'm also working on limiting my distractions. This is a big deal. Really, the only distraction that has ever been for me is video games. As a guy, most people might assume women, bars, drinking, would be a distraction. And where as the occasional drink, or bar would be enjoyable, it was never cheap. And women? I can pretty much assure you that women haven't been a distraction for me since I was single. Just because other guys think about sex all the time, doesn't mean I do.
I feel that I'm in a pretty healthy position in my life, I'm slowly ridding the darkness, and poison from my head and body and making a better, more stable... me. I refuse to let time run this one though. My ambitiously lazy self can't abide by that. And I am just too impatient to wait on "time" to move forward. So I'm gonna make it happen faster. My brain is already moving fast enough, just a matter of getting my body to go the same speed.
I got this.
Sometimes I love my analogies, I think they're quite descriptive and occasionally make me laugh. I've been wanting to write for a few days now, but the last post was, and IS very pivotal for me and I also feel that it could help others as well. So if you still haven't read it, I highly suggest it. Again, as a small warning, it's semi-religious based, so take what you will from it. I've also been adding labels to some of the blogs to properly categorize some of my writings. It's adds a better structure to the blog as a whole. With that being said I might add a new label to show which blogs are my personal favorite. Also, I'd like to state that I don't read what I write. I mean, sometimes I do, but for the most part, I don't ever look back immediately after I write it, and critique, edit, or spell check (well I do spell check while I'm writing). I will typically just write what ever my thoughts are, and the words in my head as if I was speaking in person. It seems to be the best and easiest way for me to empty the thoughts out and allows me to continue moving on throughout my day without an increasing headache.
Now that I've said what I wanted to say, I suppose I should get on with the blog and why I was writing in the first place.
I've started running, kinda. Well... no, I actually am I running. I've been trying to get up at 6am, but 6am turns to 6:30, which turns to 7, to 7:30, and one morning was 8:30. Today, 7am. It's been 4 days! Give me some credit here. Being I was going to bed at 4am a week ago, this isn't too bad. I want to get up at 6, but my bed is so comfortable! And I haven't been sleeping well (friggin dreams man!)
So I start with a 10 mile ride along the pacific coast, which I gotta tell you, is very refreshing. I'll listen to a podcast from my church, and then do some meditating and praying on the way back. That's 30 minutes one way, 30 minutes (roughly). Then once I drop the bike off at home, I just run around the block. The first day was crappy, pushed myself to go as far as I can, but made it about half way? Then I decided to go just a bit further then the last point, and I actually ran a lot slower this time, which really does make a difference. Made it about 5/8ths of the way around the block... which is just a bit more than half for those who don't do math. Today, I made it around 75% of the block. Tomorrow? I aim for the whole block... then THE WORLD! MWAHAHAHAHA. right.
Why all the running? The exercise? Aside from the fact that I'm totally diggin' the body tone I've acquired, and that some of my shorts and pants are fitting way better, I'm working on building structure for myself. The last entry had a brief description of it. If I can build a better foundation for myself, I can build a better structure to build out from. My procrastination is a major key that I need to fix within myself in order to move forward and be the best person I can be. So, if I start getting up at an (outrageously) early time, I can get the exercise in that I need to remain healthy, and focus on my tasks during the day. Before this, I was just kinda, doing whatever, whenever. Middle of the day bike ride kinda takes most of your day away from you. By time I was finally ready to do something, it was 9pm. Not so good really.
I'm also working on limiting my distractions. This is a big deal. Really, the only distraction that has ever been for me is video games. As a guy, most people might assume women, bars, drinking, would be a distraction. And where as the occasional drink, or bar would be enjoyable, it was never cheap. And women? I can pretty much assure you that women haven't been a distraction for me since I was single. Just because other guys think about sex all the time, doesn't mean I do.
I feel that I'm in a pretty healthy position in my life, I'm slowly ridding the darkness, and poison from my head and body and making a better, more stable... me. I refuse to let time run this one though. My ambitiously lazy self can't abide by that. And I am just too impatient to wait on "time" to move forward. So I'm gonna make it happen faster. My brain is already moving fast enough, just a matter of getting my body to go the same speed.
I got this.
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