Look at this guy! I'm a dangerous machine that has the new strength to get through adversity. I've been refined and sharpened to be an incredible weapon of adversity to pierce the heart of struggle and beat the hell out of discouragement. I've been down and out, low and gone, lost and stupid, hurt and depressed, pained and deathly, I've been in a world that had one color. Now? Well, NOW this guy is on top of the world. Okay... not on top of the world, but I'm pretty close to the north pole and I'm sure it's just a matter of time before I conquer the world and I can stand on top of my mountain again.
Nobody understands the importance of a job until you don't have one for way too long. It's ridiculous how long it takes to get one now a days and the negative effects it can cause without having one. It's annoying and totally discouraging. If there's one thing I understand it's how homeless people become homeless. Most of the time people don't give a thought about it and think they are lazy and shiftless. But what happens when YOU lose a job? When YOU don't have family or friends, or you become depressed, and struggle to just get by? What happens then? What happens when you can't afford to buy food? When you aren't plugged into some kind of community to help you out? You go homeless, you sell your stuff to TRY to make it work. You call up everyone you know, you reach out and you get desperate. You start collecting recyclables. Not because you want to help the world, but because you want to help yourself. A man's gotta eat, right? So you keep looking, keep trying. What happens when you don't have a cell phone, no internet, no computer. How do you get a job then? What happens when the water gets shut off, and there's no more money for soap or deodorant? How can you even walk in when you smell like the same garbage you threw out a few months ago? Sucks huh? Ya... well I'm blessed. I'm a little lucky, but mainly blessed with the people in my life.
So now I gotta job. It's been a while since I've been this excited and happy. I feel that there are endless possibilities and anything can happen now. I feel like I've gained some of that random innocence back that I lost as a kid. I'm in awe of the world and excited for what's next.
Think about the greatest moment of your life. The best time you ever had, or the moment you were just totally happy and at peace. Ya, that moment, I remember that time. I miss h... it. I miss it. But now? This moment right now? I got a job you fools!!!! It's a level of peace I haven't experienced in quite a few months. Okay, a lot of months.
Current state? Happy. Hahahahahahaha... I'm happy. Oh... and I ain't stoppin here... no no no no no no no no. I'm gonna keep going. What does that mean? Ask me. I got plans. I got ideas. I got theories and thoughts and a process. I WILL get what I want. I WILL NOT stop. I have changed. I changed in so many ways. I have the most unbelieveable clarity and it's incredible. Sigh. Thank you God, my family, and my friends for sticking with me on this one. ooooo... facebook note time. 2 of 3 blogs written... on to the next.
Nobody understands the importance of a job until you don't have one for way too long. It's ridiculous how long it takes to get one now a days and the negative effects it can cause without having one. It's annoying and totally discouraging. If there's one thing I understand it's how homeless people become homeless. Most of the time people don't give a thought about it and think they are lazy and shiftless. But what happens when YOU lose a job? When YOU don't have family or friends, or you become depressed, and struggle to just get by? What happens then? What happens when you can't afford to buy food? When you aren't plugged into some kind of community to help you out? You go homeless, you sell your stuff to TRY to make it work. You call up everyone you know, you reach out and you get desperate. You start collecting recyclables. Not because you want to help the world, but because you want to help yourself. A man's gotta eat, right? So you keep looking, keep trying. What happens when you don't have a cell phone, no internet, no computer. How do you get a job then? What happens when the water gets shut off, and there's no more money for soap or deodorant? How can you even walk in when you smell like the same garbage you threw out a few months ago? Sucks huh? Ya... well I'm blessed. I'm a little lucky, but mainly blessed with the people in my life.
So now I gotta job. It's been a while since I've been this excited and happy. I feel that there are endless possibilities and anything can happen now. I feel like I've gained some of that random innocence back that I lost as a kid. I'm in awe of the world and excited for what's next.
Think about the greatest moment of your life. The best time you ever had, or the moment you were just totally happy and at peace. Ya, that moment, I remember that time. I miss h... it. I miss it. But now? This moment right now? I got a job you fools!!!! It's a level of peace I haven't experienced in quite a few months. Okay, a lot of months.
Current state? Happy. Hahahahahahaha... I'm happy. Oh... and I ain't stoppin here... no no no no no no no no. I'm gonna keep going. What does that mean? Ask me. I got plans. I got ideas. I got theories and thoughts and a process. I WILL get what I want. I WILL NOT stop. I have changed. I changed in so many ways. I have the most unbelieveable clarity and it's incredible. Sigh. Thank you God, my family, and my friends for sticking with me on this one. ooooo... facebook note time. 2 of 3 blogs written... on to the next.
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