My Octobers are always so weird and filled with so many odd random crazy memories. I'm not about to get into the gorey details, but I can say that I've met most of my relationships in October, I've had major life experiences in that month, and pretty much anything revolving around romance or the like, has happened in that month. Overall, it's always filled with changes, and learning. Good times this last month though, that's for sure. Life is always a wild ride, low points allow you to enjoy the high points even more.
And... that's about all I gotta say about that. What I really wanted to talk about was passion.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately, passion. I have a lot of friends that are driven and have some serious life passions. For instance, I have plenty of friends who are incredibly passionate about their dancing. They constantly go out, improve, learn, compete, and listen to all things related to their particular dance style and genre. They are constantly striving to better themselves and their skills and will constantly pursue that arena for the sheer fact that they feel so strongly about it. It's admirable and inspiring.
I feel like everyone has something that they are crazy about; their kids, their wife, their job, their hobbies, tons of things. But I think there's something important here. Whereas this is all great and fine, I think that as soon as someone defines themselves by that passion, they risk some serious insanity.
Think about it, if that person defines themselves as "I am, because of [job] or [hobby] or [person]" and then that object/skill is suddenly stripped from them, then they would completely lose all sense of self and fall into some chaotic form of depression or self loathing. Defining yourself by your passions is potential for self destruction.
On the flip side of this, I've tried to figure out what I'm passionate about. And I couldn't think of anything. There isn't one thing that I could live without. I'd rather not include family and friends on this subject, as I love them dearly and obviously wouldn't want to lose any of them. But to have something that I enjoy thoroughly and have become driven to succeed at, or passionate about, I can't think of any one thing in particular. Sure, I love doing a lot of things; dancing, artwork, writing, running, hiking, video games, etc etc. But I'm not dependant about that stuff. And luckily, I've never defined myself by what I do, wear, or who/what I know. I know who I am, I don't need something or someone to define who I am to other people. I let my personality and words/actions do that for me.
I suppose if I'm going to have to pick something I'm passionate about, it's that I'm passionate about having fun. Sure, that might be a completely weak and go-to lame excuse, but it's the only thing that makes sense to me. I love making people laugh. I love having fun, being witty and sarcastic, and being able to lighten the mood, even if it's uncalled for. But even still, to say I'm passionate about any of that, doesn't really fit the definition that I've already set prior in this entry.
Personally, I feel like I should have SOMETHING that motivates me and gets me excited, but the truth is, I'm excited to do anything fun and awesome. Despite my past personality quirks, I really do love a good challenge, and enjoy the accomplishment of finishing that task, learning that skill, and saying "Hey, I did that, I may have totally sucked at it, but I tried it!" So that's still a win in my book.
Maybe I just haven't found that thing to drive me. Maybe I should just pick a direction and drive there. Maybe I should just hire someone to drive for me. Maybe I'll just learn to fly instead. Up, Up and AWWWWWWWAAAAAAYYYY!
And... that's about all I gotta say about that. What I really wanted to talk about was passion.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately, passion. I have a lot of friends that are driven and have some serious life passions. For instance, I have plenty of friends who are incredibly passionate about their dancing. They constantly go out, improve, learn, compete, and listen to all things related to their particular dance style and genre. They are constantly striving to better themselves and their skills and will constantly pursue that arena for the sheer fact that they feel so strongly about it. It's admirable and inspiring.
I feel like everyone has something that they are crazy about; their kids, their wife, their job, their hobbies, tons of things. But I think there's something important here. Whereas this is all great and fine, I think that as soon as someone defines themselves by that passion, they risk some serious insanity.
Think about it, if that person defines themselves as "I am, because of [job] or [hobby] or [person]" and then that object/skill is suddenly stripped from them, then they would completely lose all sense of self and fall into some chaotic form of depression or self loathing. Defining yourself by your passions is potential for self destruction.
On the flip side of this, I've tried to figure out what I'm passionate about. And I couldn't think of anything. There isn't one thing that I could live without. I'd rather not include family and friends on this subject, as I love them dearly and obviously wouldn't want to lose any of them. But to have something that I enjoy thoroughly and have become driven to succeed at, or passionate about, I can't think of any one thing in particular. Sure, I love doing a lot of things; dancing, artwork, writing, running, hiking, video games, etc etc. But I'm not dependant about that stuff. And luckily, I've never defined myself by what I do, wear, or who/what I know. I know who I am, I don't need something or someone to define who I am to other people. I let my personality and words/actions do that for me.
I suppose if I'm going to have to pick something I'm passionate about, it's that I'm passionate about having fun. Sure, that might be a completely weak and go-to lame excuse, but it's the only thing that makes sense to me. I love making people laugh. I love having fun, being witty and sarcastic, and being able to lighten the mood, even if it's uncalled for. But even still, to say I'm passionate about any of that, doesn't really fit the definition that I've already set prior in this entry.
Personally, I feel like I should have SOMETHING that motivates me and gets me excited, but the truth is, I'm excited to do anything fun and awesome. Despite my past personality quirks, I really do love a good challenge, and enjoy the accomplishment of finishing that task, learning that skill, and saying "Hey, I did that, I may have totally sucked at it, but I tried it!" So that's still a win in my book.
Maybe I just haven't found that thing to drive me. Maybe I should just pick a direction and drive there. Maybe I should just hire someone to drive for me. Maybe I'll just learn to fly instead. Up, Up and AWWWWWWWAAAAAAYYYY!
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