A friend of mine recently asked me to write about, and I'll quote them on this...
"... write something about clocks and how it relates in our lives. i want something like... running out of time, we wanna stop it but it wont, turn back the hands of time, and what would you feel if you know something is coming and clock is ticking so fast and youre running out of time..."
So I thought about it. And really, the only thought I have ever had in regards to time is that time is always against you. Okay. Maybe Always was a little harsh. 99% of the time, time is against you. Time is just waiting, but you have numbers to count while you wait. You wait for everything. You wait to be born. You wait to grow up. You wait to start school. You wait to finish school. You wait to finish college. You wait for the right job. You wait for the right person. You wait for the right house. You wait for your kids. Ultimately you wait to die. Morbid and depressing, I know. Not the way I wanted to go with this at all. But it's the truth is it not?
Two things almost always accompany "Time"; impatience and the "what if's". Everyone is impatient. At some point in your life you couldn't wait to open a present, to see a person, to get away, to go somewhere new. Life is just too exciting to not be impatient. Impatience is a great thing. It's what keeps us alive and wanting more. Sure, many people pray for patience, or would like to be more patient. That's all good and fine in its own place. As for me, in the past, I've gotten way too excited about giving a gift to a girlfriend. I just couldn't wait any longer and would end up giving the gift early. Or, due to my lack of impatience and my own child-like excitement, I would drop way too many hints and they would figure it out. My lack of patience at that moment is completely okay with me. I digress. My point is, that sometimes having a lack of patience, and not wanting to wait for time to catch up to you, ie making your OWN time, is perfect.
In regards to the "what if's"? I've tried my whole life (which isn't that long actually) to not think about those. That's a never ending road with many many shortcuts and hidden trails.
I would like to think of myself as a positive person. I'd like to think that nothing bad is actually going to happen to me or anyone I know. It's an arogant ignorance I'm willing to admit to, but it makes life more pleasant. If I spent my free time thinking about bad things to happen, I'd miss out on some of the most awesome things life has to offer. I'd start to exert this negative energy around me and cause people to stray away. Not good. I've always found it pointless to think about negatives. Why waste that time? I'm too busy being impatient for the next trip, or the next visit with a friend, or my birthday or thanksgiving, or anything like that.
I think wanting to stop time, or rewind it could lead to regret. Another pointless thing. Everything happens because it does. Choices made, mistakes happened, you move on and learn from them. Enjoy the tiny moments you have with that special someone. Enjoy every moment of it. The arguements and the laughter. Days, weeks, months, or maybe even years later, you'll look back and probably even laugh at that one arguement and smile. Time has to move forward, and people have to move with it.
Ferris Bueller once said "Life goes by pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." So like I said. Go with the flow and treasure those small moments you had with someone, or that random encounter, or that random joke that made you at the very least smile. Time is the most precious commodity. I regret nothing.
"I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer." Colette (1873 - 1954)
To think that something bad is coming your way and you can't stop time or prevent it from happening leads into the realm of being psychic or foretelling the future. Now I could post a list of examples in my life where I've had things like that happen to me. For those of you who truly know me, you know that those random dates, or times, or time frames that pop into my head, always come true. (I really need to stop using always). If you allow yourself to be taken over by some forboding that could happen in the future, you've already brought it to the present. Don't worry about what's to come, just enjoy what's going on now.
I think I've made my point very clear about 5 times now. Just live. Smile. Laugh. Treasure what you had and what you will have.
My cup is more than half full.... the ice melted.
* seriously... I always use always wrong. I always want to use always in a more finite place then always. I really should stop using that stupid word. It's never always. Never. Maybe somtimes its occasionally possibly in the most-likely used properly, maybe. But i never should use always, or never. ever.
3am... whoo hoo. 21 hours awake.
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