What a crazy whirlwind of a few days. Originally this post was going to be on facebook, but decided nope, this needs to be on a blog post, where almost nobody will read the whole thing and only read the title and then like/heart/emoji the facebook link. But honestly, I'm still too excited (I have a wife) about everything that happened this last weekend (I have a wife).
You see, since I was just a wee little lad (I have a wife), I always said "I'm not getting married" (I have a wife), or "I'm gonna live on top of a mountain" (I have a wife) or something similar to all of those things. And the truth of it is, I honestly believed that (I have a wife). (okay, I'm done with the "(I have a wife)" thing, I'm just still excited.
I really thought I'd never find someone, or for that matter, never really wanted to. Sure, loneliness was a real thing for me, and little did I know that depression was a problem for me. But I continued to be me, the stubborn, independent, sarcastic, jerk, fun seeking, laughter inducing guy I am today. Here's the thing though, you all changed me. It's your fault. I grew as a person. I was taught lessons, life lessons. I learned what to do, not to do, how to look out for myself, and to be more accepting of who I am, AND be more confident in myself when in a relationship.
So, me... getting marrried is really a culmination of all the teachings from my family and friends and those who have imparted loads of wisdom on me. Sure I may have been too stubborn to listen and admit that you were right, but what you said was planted into my sub-conscience, and no matter what, it stuck with me.
I never thought that I would find someone who understood me, most of the time better than myself. Who truly accepted me. Now let me iterate this for you a bit more, this "accept me" thing. A lot of people say that, and that's nice. But me? Come on, I'm kind of an acquired taste in personality. You either like me, or you don't. And my inability to remain in contact, or be the bestestest friend and go to all the events has proven to be a difficulty for me, because my lack of attention and my supreme focus on my own selfish wants has/can cause some irritation. Weird, I sound like I'm putting a warning on my friendship as if I'm an early morning drug commercial; "Being friends with him may cause irritable bowls, constant diarrhea, headaches, nausea, vomiting, and crankiness".
So to say that you are my friend is quite an achievement; to say someone loves me is a bigger achievement. But, BUT, to say that someone loves me unequivocally, and in all senses of the word, accepts me for who I am, which includes the aforementioned faults, as well as all my positives (which is a lot, and includes my greatest trait, humbleness) is extraordinary.
And honestly? She even improves me... forcing me to be a better person. Wait, let me explain the "forcing" part. I don't mean, forcing me like a gun to the head "You best be a great person and do what I say, or Ima gonna fill you full of lead" because apparently she's a western gunslinger? No. Her want to do good by people, and intense levels of empathy that she has being trying to teach me, have forced me to actually try to see things more from other people's eyes. I've gotten better at asking for help, even if it's just a little. Also, my work ethic? Let me just say I've never been so focused on goals before, which has also developed into a problem at times.
Saying my mind is blown is not enough to illustrate how truly mind blowing her level of support and love is... for me.... ME!? Blowing up the sun, and all the other shiny suns in the entirety of space would really be the only proper way to show the craziness of that statement.
I'm thankful. I'm grateful. You all have shown patience with me, especially my family, as my last minute needs, my constant "I do what I want" "Don't tell me what to do" and "It's my wedding" statements only helped to distant them from a celebration I wish could have lasted longer than 5 minutes. Seriously, biggest, most expensive, fastest event I've ever been apart of. I've seen commercials that lasted longer!
I digress. I'd be lying if there weren't some hiccups to the wedding, I've been told that no wedding is perfect, and no wedding doesn't go by super fast for the bride and groom. But to me, the most important part, the ceremony, was perfect. I married my best friend in front of those individuals who I felt most had an influence in my life and made me the boy who couldn't stand still from the unhealthy levels of adrenaline coursing through his entire body causing him to bounce like a ball of flubber on speed.
I really never thought I'd have a wife. And now that I do, I couldn't be any happier. This is a landmark for me, like landing on the moon is for humanity; it sounded impossible at first, but now that it's happened, pretty dang impressive.
I love you all.
Also, if you made it to the end of this whole dang thing. Just say "You have a wife" in the comments (here or facebook), because it's still shocking to say and hear (shocking in a MASSIVE SMILE I HAVE A WIFE! kind of way).
