I'm writing because sometimes I have to write. Wait, that... that didn't make any sense. Every so often people come into your life and do amazing things for you or to you. When I use the word amazing, keep in mind that I'm using it as a general term and not specific to good or bad. It's these random encounters with these people that make us who we are. Due to their actions and/or presence in our lives, our personality will be formed accordingly. We all make different choices because of them. Sometimes these people come into our lives for a short period, other times its for the rest of our lives. I can honestly say that during the course of my life, which is hardly that long at all, I've met a lot of people. Many of them from Disneyland, both working and playing there. I am thankful for every person I have ever encountered. Every experience I've had with these remarkable people. Wait...I know, I know. This blog seems a little bit deep, and possibly one sided. I'll try and explain it better. About 5 to 6 times a week, I do a small 5 minute meditation and just relax my brain and find an inner peace in myself that really rejuvenates me. At the same time I tend to sort through old memories, and new thoughts. As I continually try and improve myself and be a better person, I realize different things as I go along in life. This blog's sole purpose is just a public reminder to not only myself, but to anyone else out there, that no matter how bad life is, or how bad a person is, they have had some positive influence in your life. Sure, we all know all the good things a person might do for you, that goes without saying. Everyone will hear about it from you about how great they were, or how awesome it was that they did this or that. But there's so much negativity when it comes to the bad things that happened. I'd like to think that when the majority of bad things that have happened in my life happened, I'd look back and think about what I could learn from that experience. Even with bad things happening all around, you can always learn from those mistakes or those people or something to better yourself, to learn and grow and make sure it doesn't happen again. My friends will gladly point out a few flaws in my choices I'm sure, and I'm trying my best to work on that. But you gotta be positive. Like I said in the beginning, people come into your life all the time, and sometimes, even if you don't want to, you have to say thanks. And when those people leave, sometimes for good, you have to be willing to say good bye.... and thank you. Life is too short to hold grudges and be negative towards people. You never know what could happen to them in their life and this planet is SOOO small that it's very plausible for life paths to cross numerous times.
So with that, keep smiling and laughing, cause you never know whose life you might brighten with that smile or laugh.
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Saturday, January 31, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Youtube, swing dancing, and too much time...
So for starters, my birthday was AWESOME! I'd like to thank George for allowing me to destroy his house with about 20-30 people. I'd also like to thank all those people that were able to make it down for my 29th. I really appreciate all the laughs and good times you guys provide... otherwise I wouldn't have invited you. If you didn't go, then you missed out. I'm really happy that my "little brother" Ryan got to come down too. I really made out pretty good on presents, DVD player, Wii points, gift cards, semi automatic chain gun Nerf gun and an Xbox 360 elite. Oh yes, I'm 29 years old. So what? I do find myself playing Megaman 9 more then anything else though. I also got Rosetta Stone like I wanted, and I've been swing dancing more than I have in a long time. It feels GREAT to finally get out and do something active and semi creative. I'm actually quite proud of myself. I've been going regularly on Wednesdays now since the beginning of the year and last week I've been on Friday and Saturday. I've rectified the knee issue by not succumbing to idiocy knee pops and being smoother with simplified kicking.
I've also started posting on youtube. Yes... youtube. You read that right. Just some simple stuff. I've created two accounts one for my own personal videos and another for more, kinda sorta, production work. I'm trying to learn Adobe Premier, but haven't learned the lingo yet.
Ummmm... I don't really think there is much else to say. I got my uncle to swing dance, which is fricken amazing! I'm so proud of that... Guy. He kinda likes it too! I've really be in the right mentality when I go swing dancing. I can't really explain it, but I feel... dang it, I wanta use the word exuberance but I'm not entirely sure how to use it in this sentence. But ya, I feel that word right there... exuberance. Well, I think that's about it really. There was something else I wanted to say, but I suppose that will be left for an entirely different blog since my memory fails me at the moment.
*sniff sniff* mmmmmmmmm cookies....
I've also started posting on youtube. Yes... youtube. You read that right. Just some simple stuff. I've created two accounts one for my own personal videos and another for more, kinda sorta, production work. I'm trying to learn Adobe Premier, but haven't learned the lingo yet.
Ummmm... I don't really think there is much else to say. I got my uncle to swing dance, which is fricken amazing! I'm so proud of that... Guy. He kinda likes it too! I've really be in the right mentality when I go swing dancing. I can't really explain it, but I feel... dang it, I wanta use the word exuberance but I'm not entirely sure how to use it in this sentence. But ya, I feel that word right there... exuberance. Well, I think that's about it really. There was something else I wanted to say, but I suppose that will be left for an entirely different blog since my memory fails me at the moment.
*sniff sniff* mmmmmmmmm cookies....
Saturday, January 17, 2009
29 times around the sun, and only one birthday wish
So, 29 times around the sun now. I still look young, I still feel young.... *sniff sniff* I don't smell like an old person. I think I'm in a great place in my life. I'm single and almost debt free. Soon I will be able to do and go anywhere in the world. I'm actually going to go places and see things. Gonna learn to Salsa this year at some point. I'm also in the process of learning French, Dutch and Japanese. I'll also be working on my swing dancing skills. I'm doing things this year because I want to.
At some point in your life, you will look back. You will hit a memory road, you'll remember good times with those great friends. You might remember those old lovers. You might also remember all those empty promises you made to yourself or that others made to you. Then, at that moment of inner memory reflection, you'll become aware of your age. You'll suddenly become fully conscience of the amount of time that has passed since those younger promises. You'll possibly feel a small knot in your stomach. Or, maybe, you'll just smile and laugh at what you thought was just a stupid childish dream and hope. But you know what? It wasn't stupid, it wasn't childish. It was a dream. The whole world is built on dreams and hopes and wishes. Some more extravagant and outrageous than others, but the few that aren't. Those dreams, THOSE hopes and wishes, THOSE PEOPLE are the ones that go down in history as visionaries. As entrepreneurs who re focused society to grow in a different direction. Those are the people who didn't give up in adversity. They didn't quit believing in themselves. They just did it because they wanted to. Because they knew that they could. Someday... a child... your child, a friend's kid... doesn't matter; that kid will say he wants to build _____ or go _____ or learn _____. Then years later, when you run into that kid, or parent of the kid, in the supermarket, that dream comes up. And you'll remember.
I might be 29 years old, almost 30, which to some is half dead. But I don't see that. I'm excited. I'm sure I could have done things completely different growing up. I could go down a whole list of the do's and don'ts in my life. But why bother? All of those things made me who I am today. And I'm excited. I'm ecstatic. I've realized just how much there is in life that I haven't taken advantage of. I've got such a peace of mind, and such a steady and calm soul that I feel like I can do anything. And it's this feeling that has always been there inside. I've never completely given up. Not on anything. I know that I will accomplish my goals, and my dreams. My optimism might be annoying to some, but I don't care. I will continue on with my smiles and laughs and only enjoy life more. So that when someone looks at me in a picture, a video or in person, they will see what they are missing and join in!
I think that every so often you just need to buy a toy for yourself. Go to toys r us, target, walmart. And just buy yourself a toy. Nerf gun, barbie, legos, a doll house, whatever it is. But don't just buy it and then leave it in the car. Buy it, pay for it, open it up on the way to the car. Play with it. The innocence that was lost as a child can be regained again. It's that carefree fun spirit that everyone should have. Step out of the box! Step out of your comfort zone.
I sound like a weird philosopher. But sometimes when I get into a subject that I enjoy thinking about, I could type for days.
Sidenote: Yes, I edited this blog. Why? Because I felt that the true general point I was trying to make was being taken wrong. It wasn't my intention of singling out any one individual, but more trying to write and speak in generalities. It's from my own personal experience with numerous people. I apologize for any confusion this may have caused. Now on with your regularly scheduled program.
At some point in your life, you will look back. You will hit a memory road, you'll remember good times with those great friends. You might remember those old lovers. You might also remember all those empty promises you made to yourself or that others made to you. Then, at that moment of inner memory reflection, you'll become aware of your age. You'll suddenly become fully conscience of the amount of time that has passed since those younger promises. You'll possibly feel a small knot in your stomach. Or, maybe, you'll just smile and laugh at what you thought was just a stupid childish dream and hope. But you know what? It wasn't stupid, it wasn't childish. It was a dream. The whole world is built on dreams and hopes and wishes. Some more extravagant and outrageous than others, but the few that aren't. Those dreams, THOSE hopes and wishes, THOSE PEOPLE are the ones that go down in history as visionaries. As entrepreneurs who re focused society to grow in a different direction. Those are the people who didn't give up in adversity. They didn't quit believing in themselves. They just did it because they wanted to. Because they knew that they could. Someday... a child... your child, a friend's kid... doesn't matter; that kid will say he wants to build _____ or go _____ or learn _____. Then years later, when you run into that kid, or parent of the kid, in the supermarket, that dream comes up. And you'll remember.
I might be 29 years old, almost 30, which to some is half dead. But I don't see that. I'm excited. I'm sure I could have done things completely different growing up. I could go down a whole list of the do's and don'ts in my life. But why bother? All of those things made me who I am today. And I'm excited. I'm ecstatic. I've realized just how much there is in life that I haven't taken advantage of. I've got such a peace of mind, and such a steady and calm soul that I feel like I can do anything. And it's this feeling that has always been there inside. I've never completely given up. Not on anything. I know that I will accomplish my goals, and my dreams. My optimism might be annoying to some, but I don't care. I will continue on with my smiles and laughs and only enjoy life more. So that when someone looks at me in a picture, a video or in person, they will see what they are missing and join in!
I think that every so often you just need to buy a toy for yourself. Go to toys r us, target, walmart. And just buy yourself a toy. Nerf gun, barbie, legos, a doll house, whatever it is. But don't just buy it and then leave it in the car. Buy it, pay for it, open it up on the way to the car. Play with it. The innocence that was lost as a child can be regained again. It's that carefree fun spirit that everyone should have. Step out of the box! Step out of your comfort zone.
I sound like a weird philosopher. But sometimes when I get into a subject that I enjoy thinking about, I could type for days.
Sidenote: Yes, I edited this blog. Why? Because I felt that the true general point I was trying to make was being taken wrong. It wasn't my intention of singling out any one individual, but more trying to write and speak in generalities. It's from my own personal experience with numerous people. I apologize for any confusion this may have caused. Now on with your regularly scheduled program.
Ah... Smell that? that's the smell of clear mind...
Oh ya. It has a smell. You might not smell it right now, but someday. Someday my good man, you'll smell the smell of a clear mind, body and soul. I must admit, of all the years I've had in my life, the last... let's say 3.2 years have been pretty extreme in their own individual ways. And I would say last year, might have been the worst of them all. But you know what? I'm not going to. I'm going to say this instead. Last year was the best year ever.
DISCLAIMER: I currently have two blogs. One for public use, and one for personal use. I've just recently decided that there really isn't much point to be hiding much of my thoughts, and since I'm feeling like my ol' self again, anything I've ever said about someone behind them, I'd gladly say to their face. And I'd expect the same courtesy. So with that said, the following will probably be quite blunt and forward. I apologize in advance for any feelings that might get hurt, sorry you are so sensitive.
So ya, last year, no sarcasm, was the best. Why? Why do you ask could it possibly have been awesome? Sure, my grandfather died. A woman I thought might have loved me lied and manipulated me to an incredible extent and tore every shred of my own self confidence to confetti. And then another nameless individual added an additional 1% to that equation. Sure... there was a fire at my apartment complex. But... you know... It was a great year. I have become so much stronger in the last couple of months. I've realized that self loathing and self pity are pathetic. I've learned that the only person who holds you back is yourself.
I'm in a great place now. The events that had happened in the last 3 to 4 months of last year had a more of an effect on me that most people know. I finally got tired of holding on to the hope of someone coming back. I realized that they never will and never had the intentions of doing so. Which I suppose in reality is a great thing. Because in all honesty, it really does take TWO people to have love. A one sided relationship is like a table with only 2 legs on diagonal opposites. Sure it'll stand for a minute, but you put anything on it, the balancing act is over and it comes falling down pretty hard.
I've found myself again. I'm happy. I found my own happiness. My own carefree attitude. I'm very excited. Today was my birthday. I got calls, texts, myspace messages, facebook messages. It was a great feeling to have so many people say Happy Birthday. I mean, who am I? I'm just some guy who loves making people smile. There's some people that said Happy Birthday that I didn't expect would, and there's a one or two that I thought would. But once again, that's the good news. Being that they didn't say happy new year, or happy birthday, only makes the process of forgetting an existence that much easier.
I don't have much else to say on this blog, but I have ideas for the next one. So I'll wrap this one up and say...
YAY FOR 2009! New Year, New Opportunities, and New Smiles. Whoo Hoo!
DISCLAIMER: I currently have two blogs. One for public use, and one for personal use. I've just recently decided that there really isn't much point to be hiding much of my thoughts, and since I'm feeling like my ol' self again, anything I've ever said about someone behind them, I'd gladly say to their face. And I'd expect the same courtesy. So with that said, the following will probably be quite blunt and forward. I apologize in advance for any feelings that might get hurt, sorry you are so sensitive.
So ya, last year, no sarcasm, was the best. Why? Why do you ask could it possibly have been awesome? Sure, my grandfather died. A woman I thought might have loved me lied and manipulated me to an incredible extent and tore every shred of my own self confidence to confetti. And then another nameless individual added an additional 1% to that equation. Sure... there was a fire at my apartment complex. But... you know... It was a great year. I have become so much stronger in the last couple of months. I've realized that self loathing and self pity are pathetic. I've learned that the only person who holds you back is yourself.
I'm in a great place now. The events that had happened in the last 3 to 4 months of last year had a more of an effect on me that most people know. I finally got tired of holding on to the hope of someone coming back. I realized that they never will and never had the intentions of doing so. Which I suppose in reality is a great thing. Because in all honesty, it really does take TWO people to have love. A one sided relationship is like a table with only 2 legs on diagonal opposites. Sure it'll stand for a minute, but you put anything on it, the balancing act is over and it comes falling down pretty hard.
I've found myself again. I'm happy. I found my own happiness. My own carefree attitude. I'm very excited. Today was my birthday. I got calls, texts, myspace messages, facebook messages. It was a great feeling to have so many people say Happy Birthday. I mean, who am I? I'm just some guy who loves making people smile. There's some people that said Happy Birthday that I didn't expect would, and there's a one or two that I thought would. But once again, that's the good news. Being that they didn't say happy new year, or happy birthday, only makes the process of forgetting an existence that much easier.
I don't have much else to say on this blog, but I have ideas for the next one. So I'll wrap this one up and say...
YAY FOR 2009! New Year, New Opportunities, and New Smiles. Whoo Hoo!